Over the line

Last night I had a rather interesting emotional moment. I have been quite frustrated the last couple weeks with my support raising both in getting a hold of people to schedule appointments, but also to follow-up. It made me realize how much pressure I am putting on getting myself out the door by Feb. 21 rather than submitting to God's timing. I was panicking about school starting and me needing to be there, getting there before the new Bolivian visa law becomes active, moving out so my roommate can have his place back to himself and other silly things. I think it was my growing anxiety catching up with me. Fortunately our God is so humbling and He made me realize it doesn't matter when I leave. It really threw me for a loop and I just spent some time in prayer and listening to worship music for about an hour which really calmed me down. I realized this process is hard for me because I have a hard time being vulnerable, so I just need to take baby steps rather than get ahead of myself. I got a great night of sleep and today, I'm happy to report I am much more at peace about everything and have decided to refocus on taking things one week and one day at a time. Whether I get to Bolivia Feb 21, March 6 or some other time I have truly realized it just doesn't matter.

Bolivia is also under some intense spiritual oppression right now with the political changes and everything. My missionary friends in Cochabamba had a rough week last week and you could tell they just were getting so discouraged by everything related to the protests there. I wouldn't be surprised if my difficulties were related to that (after all what happens here on earth is not invisible to the spiritual realm). Please pray for us, as well as for my friends Lucho and Lorna who are returning to Trinidad early next week that they could have safe travels. Pray as well for a strong divine intervention to help Bolivia move forward, I sense a fatigue on all sides of leadership and it's never a good idea to make big decisions in times of weariness.