Where He Wants Me

Over the weekend I've been doing some more thinking. I'm still committed to going to Bolivia and serving at La Palmera for a two year term, but it's got me to thinking, "Where is the best place for my skill set?" Certainly at I-Teams training I was given some affirmation about my passion for Hispanics, for computers, for education and for missions. But it got me to thinking, "is being a missionary the most effective use of my skills?" For quite some time, I've realized the shortage of computer people in the church/missions realm, and it's not surprising really. Many computer people are non-Christians and like to pursue an affluent lifestyle working for a reputable company. Some Christians do that too and give their time and money to Christian causes generously and certainly that has its place too. But neither of those really appeal to me.

I believe every Christian should focus on "missions" first and foremost. It is the most important thing we can engage in next to growing our own faith. It's what we're called to do and in all areas of the world. It is because of this I want to devote my life to missions. But would I best be used as a missionary in the field, supporting a single project, or at an administrative level supporting multiple projects? Where can I do the greatest good? These are things I'm pondering and may not be able to answer for some time. Some people clearly have a gift for relating to people and working with people. Others have specific talents that are better used in a non relational environment such as computers, music, administrative, etc. And some people like me try to walk the line between the two refusing to let go of one completely for the other. Is that Godly, or should I be focusing on my "best" skills for the benefit of everyone? If that's the case, I think I'm much better at understanding computers than people. The Lord has blessed me with a wonderful knowledge of the realm of computing and I feel it is my responsibility to share that with the world either through beneficial projects or teaching. This fundamental question I think is the key to me understanding my place in this world and where I truly belong. I'm going to be pondering and praying over this during my time in Bolivia.